Amelia's trip

Mon Jul 07, 2008 8:41 am by Drab

I have just done one of the hardest things ever, stood at the school gates and waved Amelia off on her first residential school trip to Edinburgh.
Last night as i tucked her up in bed, she looked at me with big saucer eyes, filling with tears, "I'm not sure i want to go mam." she said, "HUH, ya going, its paid for now" i joked but secretly releived.
This morning however she got up and was a little quiet, i gave her a snuggle and talked all positive and supportive about how big she was and all her favorite teachers were going, how she'd probably be sharing a room with Jade and by tonight have forgotten about that heavy churning feeling she'd got - i knew, i had it too.
We got to school and all the children chatted, their worries soon forgot, while all the mothers shuffled awkwardly and just nodded the odd hello, no one dare speak incase they were the one to cry first.
We made our way to the bus Amelia and Jade sat together and waved, i had the biggest false smile on my face and waved back, the bus started up and i thought my heart was going to stop - this was it, my little girl was going to leave for a whole week, taken care of by teachers, not me or my family or my friends i had no control or contact - its not allowed.
The bus pulled away and she waved to me and smiled, i was still smiling that false smile and fighting the tears so much it hurt, then from my left i heard it and i felt so much better Amy Richardson's mum blubbed first!!!!!!
So i'm now off to drop Matthew at nursery and go to work with red eyes .

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